Unbearable Pain: My Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around one eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre treatments for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Tammy Townsend
Tammy Townsend

A professional poker strategist with over a decade of experience in UK tournaments, specializing in online play and player psychology.